Tuesday, August 29, 2006
THE CHILD WITHIN...
Everybody kept saying Im too much of a clown. That Im always monkeying around, palying pranks, never serious about anything in life
They said, Get serious. I didnt give in
Their persistence paid off for them. I abandoned my carefree ways & got "serious".
That is when I felt a part of me had died. I didnt feel joyful anymore. I didnt feel like an excited little boy, anticipating a new day, new possibilites. Felt my enthusiasm & sense of humor crash at the bottom of the trash can.
It struck me. I was getting along well without being "serious". I was doing things that i was passinate about. And then, I felt I was putting in more effort being 'serious' about things that dont touch me in any way. And the clown, the prankster was bor again, and has remained so.
Life's tough... Shit happens. It is already too grim to be serious about. Life is meant to be taken with a pich of salt, not imbibed with unpleasant spices of plaguing maladies. Its upto us to make life more colorful. Yes, we do have to work hard - we do have to take responsibilties - we do have to compete.... but not at the expense of the child within
Killing that child will leave you hollow someplace inside....